Do you try to analyze your dreams?
I do. All the time. Thursday, while I was on my walk (with my new, comfy shoes), I couldn’t stop thinking about this one dream I seem to have OVER and OVER again. In my dream, I am trying to run. I WANT to run. It’s mostly happening in slow motion, but at times, my pace picks up and it is perfect and it feels great, but then everything slows down again, like BEYOND slow motion and I can’t get a pace, and I feel clumsy and my legs aren’t doing what I want them to do and I just keep trying, but its all awkward and my feet are just dragging, but all I can think about is “I just want to RUN!” Let me kindly remind you. I DO NOT LIKE TO RUN! I have no idea what this dream means, but today I decided to run just a bit while I was on my walk. I do this occasionally, thinking one day I’ll say….”Hey, I might kinda like this running thing.” And some days I have actually been able to go longer than I thought, but at the end, I never really like it, as much as I have tried. I wonder if I will continue to have that dream. I feel like it’s my subconscious telling me if I really gave it a chance, I would experience that perfect pace I feel in my dream, and actually enjoy it.
But I doubt it.
Which leads me to share another reoccurring dream that I have. You know how some people have the “falling dream”, or the “flying dream”? Well, I asked Mike if he has this dream that I have, a LOT! I dream that I am driving in a big city, downtown, with lots of tall buildings all close together, and one way streets, and I am aware that there is someone is in the passenger seat. All of a sudden the street is at this ridiculous slope!!!! Like maybe 80 degrees!!! And you HAVE to drive up it! There is no turning back! AND there is no warning! It’s just there! So I am driving up it, and the road seems to slope MORE! Damn near at 90 degrees now! I keep thinking my car is going to roll back down or just flip over! I am almost to the top now, thinking I will slide back down an any moment!! How does my car have the power to climb this road?? I’m going to FALL!!!
In my dream, I never fall, and I never reach the top.
While explaining it to Mike one day (and listening to him tell me…”No. I have never had that dream.”) I said…….
“Oh My God!!! The car is ME! The unknown passenger is my support from everyone! The street is my weight loss journey!! Its really scary, and I haven’t reached the top, but I haven’t fallen back to the bottom either!!”
Then I was really happy I talked it through. Now I have clarity. Well, maybe.
Anyhow, thats my unprofessional dream analysis.
Also while on my walk today, I was thinking about what part of my house would be best to do the leg workout that Jamie, the trainer, gave me on Wednesday. Its mostly walking lunges. Then I decided to just incorporate it into my walk while on the path around the neighborhood lake. So I did. I would imagine that I looked a little silly, but that’s not uncommon. 🙂
He gave me four different exercises to do. I am to do them each 12 times, 3 reps. It feels so good to have instruction!! I wasn’t sure how well I would be able to do them on day two, but I got them done! By Thursday night, I could not sit or stand without a grunt AND a moan! 🙂
That Damn Scale!
I worked really hard at my weight loss this week. Last Friday, I weighed 161.8, and I was super determined that today was the day that I would weigh in at 160.0.
I haven’t had alcohol since June 4th. I ate a LOT of Power Foods, I exercised a lot and earned myself 41 Activity Points, which I did not eat. I drank a lot of water, as I usually do, and I volunteered to take the Traveling Tracker from my Weight Watchers meeting.
The Traveling Tracker is this great little tool that my WW Leader, Joan, ask for volunteers to take each week. She likes you to journal food and activity in it, then bring it back the following week, and discuss if it helped you to keep on track. We also discuss if members were able to learn anything from reading what others had journaled the weeks before them. I always think this is a great idea and I love reading what other people eat. I volunteered to take it because I knew I was going to have a Kick Ass week!
All week long, I have weighed each morning, with pleasant results. This could be a monumental moment for me at the scale this week! Each morning, I would step on the scale, and it would go down. Wednesday, I ate more than I had any other day this week, but I did make good choices on the foods I was eating, or so I thought. When I stepped on the scale yesterday morning, it showed a gain! A significant gain from the day before!! I waited an hour, and weighed again. Yip, a gain? I really don’t understand, and usually when there is a gain, I know exactly what I did to deserve it. So now? Confused. I did eat pretzels, and my body doesn’t do well with salt, and I ate a LOT of cherries. So now, I am freaking out a bit today, because I really was working towards seeing 160.0 on the scale! The only thing I can think of, is that the salt is really working against me, and if I am NOT pleased with my weigh in results, I will watch my salt like a hawk, and NEXT Friday should show a larger than usual loss? That tends to happen from time to time. I will think I am doing great, then it doesn’t show at the scale until the following week, which is SUPER frustrating!
I’m crossing my fingers!!! But I’m gonna be SUPER cranky for a week if this is really bad news!!
And I HAVE to have good results, because I have the traveling TRACKER!! Weight Watcher members expect to look to this for good ideas and good results!!!! Who wants to read……Here’s what I ate and hard I exercised, and here’s how much I gained!!!!!
My feet felt great after my 5.5 mile walk! Everything from my waist down to my thighs, ACHED from my squats and lunges…….
Snack (realizing the salt potential here…..a little late)
Snack (and NOW realizing the sodium potential here) Urg!
Um, another snack….it’s a much smaller bowl than it appears in this picture.
Have you tried Spaghetti Squash?
I really like it, but it took me a few times eating it to decide for sure.
Refresh…I can eat 26 points a day.
I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.
I have an allowance of 49 points that I can dip into if I chose.
I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.
The food I ate and it’s PPV
Breakfast = Banana, Coffee with Skim Milk (1)
Lunch = Lettuce Wraps with Tuna Salad, Strawberries, Carrots (4)
Snack = Popcorn (3)
Snack = Coffee with Skim Milk (1)
Snack= Green Giant Steamers (3)
Dinner = Spaghetti Squash, Marinara, Turkey Meatballs, Caesar Salad (14)
Total = 26
Walked 5.5 Miles, Lower Body Workout with Squat and Lunge Combo’s
How many glasses of water I drank today = 12
Activity Points Earned Today = 7
Activity Points Earned This Week = 41
Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = 22
ALCOHOL consumption = NONE, I KNOW! I CAN’T BELIEVE IT EITHER!
“love the life you live, live the life you love”