Archives For February 2014

I started writing this blog to help me understand my eating habits and to help me understand my battle with my weight. I’ve learned a lot about myself. I did not realize how much I relied on food for comfort and for entertainment until I started writing this blog. I’ve learned more about myself than I ever expected. I’ve learned things about myself that made me feel good, and I’ve learned things about myself that didn’t make me feel so good. At times, I’ve felt proud of myself, and at other times, I’ve disappointed myself.

I have struggled with “food issues” and weight since grade school. Several times in my life, I have been aware of my obsession with food and I’ve wondered why food is such an “issue” for me. I’ve wondered if I would ever get to a point in my life where food was NOT an issue, but just a part of my day, a part of living a healthy life, simply fuel for my body. I wouldn’t obsess about it, I wouldn’t over think it. I wouldn’t eat too much of it. I would just eat, enjoy my meal, and move on.

This Fall, things were really falling into place and I was getting closer and closer to my goal weight, a weight that I had never weighed. I was FOUR pounds away from my goal weight! I felt healthy mentally and physically, but honestly, a part of reaching my goal weight scared me. Would I maintain it once I really got there? Then stupid stuff went through my head. I didn’t know how to be “that” person. I knew how to be a fat person always struggling. I didn’t feel like I knew how to be a “healthy” person not trying to lose weight. Would I expect different things from myself now that I really was a healthy person who had reached all of my goals? For some strange reason, it made me uncomfortable. I was really nervous about actually crossing the finish line and what I would expect from myself after that. I don’t even know how to explain it. I was even frustrated with myself for having those thoughts. The holidays came and that gave me all sorts of reasons to eat and gain weight with everyone else that gains a few pounds over the Holidays. I could blame the holidays. I had all sorts of good excuses to eat. Everyone would understand. I would understand. I didn’t have to be the healthy person just yet. 

Then I stressed through all of January wanting to go on vacation in February at a weight that I had never been at before while on vacation, so I got back into the 150’s, barely. Then I decided to not weigh right before vacation because I didn’t want my weight to determine my mood, which it does. I probably felt better about myself physically on this vacation than any other vacation we have ever gone on, but I knew I wasn’t where I would have liked to have been. I wasn’t where I should have been. Again, I felt disappointed in myself. I was short with Mike the whole week we were gone, and while we both had a great time and enjoyed ourselves, I feel like my mood put a damper on things at times. Then I felt like crap for that!

Several months ago, while struggling to get through a plateau, I looked up some information on Overeater’s Anonymous. Could I need more than what I was getting through Weight Watcher’s? I’ve never been anorexic or bulimic. I didn’t really think that I had an eating disorder that I was aware of, but I certainly knew I was constantly fighting food demons. I’ve experienced binge eating over the years. That started in grade school. I didn’t know there was a name for it. I just knew I had periods where I ate a lot of food and it likely wasn’t normal. I would only do that when I was by myself. Like really binge. Sure we’ve all eaten too much on Thanksgiving, or ordered pizza with friends and had one or even two too many pieces. But binge eating alone is a whole different thing. You just can’t get satisfied. You just keep eating. Your pissed at yourself the whole time it’s happening, but you can’t stop. This happened a lot as a kid. My binge eating as an adult in the last few years has been on foods like grapes or watermelon or carrot sticks or raw nuts, and although I was aware I was eating for reasons rather than hunger, I didn’t really know why I was eating so much. Because it was “healthy” foods, I told myself it was okay. 

After researching Overeater’s Anonymous just a little bit more, I wondered…..Could I possibly be addicted to food? Is that really a thing, Food Addiction? I knew that it was. I’ve thought about it before, but that’s about it, just thought about it. I didn’t really want to know the answer and the details. How is a person really addicted to food? And if so, how to you handle that? An alcoholic or a drug addict becomes sober by not drinking alcohol or taking drugs. A food addict has to eat! How do you abstain from food? What are the rules? 

How does a food addict commit to two to three hours a day writing a blog about losing weight and what they are eating when they are a food addict??? That’s like an alcoholic owning a chain of liquor stores!! HOW DOES IT WORK????

A couple of weeks before I went on vacation, I called Overeaters Anonymous and spoke with a sponsor. I had a lot of questions. I cried a lot. At some point during our discussion, I understood that I very well may have an addiction to food. Being a Weight Watcher member, I’ve learned so much about food and how to eat healthy. I know what I need to do. I can go weeks at a time and eat healthy without a “mess-up”. I can go weeks at a time and feel proud of my food choices. I can go weeks at a time and know that I am making good choices while allowing myself a reasonable amount of indulgences without any guilt.

But repeatedly, after weeks of success, I crash. Everything I put in my mouth feels guilty. I over think it. I obsess about the scale. I’m thinking about breakfast before my feet hit the floor in the morning, and right after breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks consume my thoughts. I am thinking about how many points each meal SHOULD BE, and how many points each meal likely WILL BE. I can completely rid the house of any and all trigger foods, and still find something to eat that I shouldn’t be eating.

I decided to go to an Overeater’s Anonymous meeting last week. A few days later, I went to another meeting. I went to another one yesterday. I haven’t quite decided if it’s where I need to be or not, and I still haven’t figured out how it all works. What I do know is that I am struggling. Some days are just so damn hard. I don’t care how busy I keep myself, food consumes my thoughts.

This is hard to blog about for several reasons. I thought when I started writing this blog that other Weight Watcher members might read my blog, and that’d be cool. Maybe I could suggest a few recipes or meal ideas, or maybe someone would relate to the slow weight loss I was experiencing and find some comfort in that. I never really thought about friends and neighbors or family reading this little blog that I was writing. 

I certainly never expected anyone to tell me that I inspired them? I’m almost embarrassed when someone says that. I wanna yell….”But I don’t have it figured out! Please forgive me if I misled you? I’m actually a mess!”

But then I remind myself that I really have made great progress. I have to remind myself of this a lot! I remind myself of these things.

I can’t remember the last time I ate fast food.

I eat a ton of fruits and vegetables and I really like them!

I drink a lot of water!

I can’t remember the last time we ordered a pizza!

I work hard to eat a balanced meal.

But after reminding myself of all of those great changes that I have made, I still know that I am not at goal weight and I have a daily struggle with food, and often those facts out weigh all the good progress that I have made.

Obviously, this was a difficult post to write. This is a private matter that I am making public. I deal better with life when I’m honest. The more I keep this to myself, the more stressed I am and the more I want to eat. Each time I blog about a private matter or a deep thought, I feel a release and I actually handle food better. It’s my therapy. I like to talk. When I talk out loud, or write, I feel better. If actual “one on one therapy” weren’t so damn expensive, I’d go weekly, maybe twice weekly. I love my WW meetings because they allow me to be around like minded people who understand my food struggles. I don’t know how many OA meetings I will go to. I’m comfortable there. A part of me feels like maybe I should have been there a very long time ago. 

I did struggle this week. I ate a few things that didn’t make it into the blog. Not like a sheet cake or anything, but almonds here and there that I didn’t count. Extra banana’s and grapes. That’s it really, nuts and fruit, but the calories add up, and I know this. I am headed to my WW meeting, and I will assume that I maintained my weight this week.

I told myself I would take this week one day at a time and not focus on the scale each morning, but focus on eating healthy foods, drinking water and exercising. I did eat healthy meals, I did drink water, but not quite as much as I had been at one time, and I exercised 5 days this week, so I am pleased with those accomplishments for the week.

Before leaving for vacation, I made a list of things to address when I got back home in order to spend less time at home and see if I can work through this rough spot.

1. Attend an OA meeting and give it a chance.

2. Look into working more hours with the Food Truck. She coincidentally picked up another location!!

3. Contact Big Brother’s Big Sister’s

I’ve decided spending so much time home alone probably isn’t the best thing for me right now, even though I am a busy body and spend a lot of time scurrying around the house doing projects and keeping busy.

I am still pursuing a position as a Leader with Weight Watcher’s, but according to an email that I received in late January, Weight Watcher’s doesn’t have a Territorial Manager in the Kansas City area right now and Job Applicant replies are behind! It is my hope that employment with Weight Watcher’s and constantly being surrounded by like minded people will help me stay focused on healthy eating and maintaining a healthy weight. 

It looks like when the weather cooperates, we will be setting up a second location for the Food Truck, so I’ll have Tuesday’s and Wednesday’s to work a job that is a lot of fun and get’s me out of the house!

I filled out an application for Big Brother’s and Big Sister’s before we left for vacation, and I will be attending an Orientation on March 15th to get that process, started. It’s something I have thought about doing for a long time, and I guess I’ve decided that this is the right time to pursue that.

While I’m writing my blog, I’m focused on this issue. When I’m out socializing, I’m likely in socializing mood, so I prefer to keep my food struggle conversations limited to WW and OA meetings, emails, text, comments on the blog, phone calls and one on one conversations. I guess that actually covers all forms of communication, I just prefer not to do so in a social setting. 

I so appreciate all of your support. I never expected so many readers.

Thank you for listening, reading and trying to understand me, even when I don’t understand myself. 

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How Did I Forget?

February 27, 2014

I got busy this morning and completely forgot to write a post!

Here’s what I ate yesterday! 

 

Breakfast

Two Slices of Toast (Trader Joe’s)

1/4 Cup Turkey Sausage cooked into 3 Egg Whites

1 Slice Cheese, divided into pieces and spread throughout the sandwich

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Lunch

Salmon, Carrots

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Snack

1/2 Gluten Free Tortilla, 1 T Almond Butter

1/2 Banana, Drizzle of Honey

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Dinner

Girl’s Night Out with some Childhood Friends!

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I really liked this place. It’s downtown and had a great atmosphere! Local and lot’s of organic. Lot’s of beers and lot’s of wine.

They have tilapia that they cook that are actually swimming around in their basement! I kinda wanted a tour of the basement after the waiter told us that!

They also slaughter their own meat! Right there!!!

I started with an Boulevard 80 Acre.

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I ordered the Tilapia Taco’s on Corn Tortilla’s and Roasted Cauliflower….

…….along with a glass of wine.

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All Coffee is served in a French Press! So yummy, I had to experience that too!

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Weight Watcher’s Points Plus

I can eat 26 PPV a day.

I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.

I have an allowance of 49 extra points that I can dip into throughout the week if I choose.

I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.

My Weight Watcher Week Begins on Friday’s

 

Breakfast =  Breakfast Sandwich, Coffee with Skim Milk (6)

Lunch = Salmon, Carrots (6)

Snack = 1/2 Tortilla, 1 T. Almond Butter, !/2 Banana, Drizzle of honey (5)

Dinner = Tilapia Tacos, Cauliflower, Wine, Beer (19)

Total = 36

Exercise = 5K Training, Plus another 30 minutes on the treadmill

How many glasses of water I drank = 8

Activity Points Earned for the Day = 4

Activity Points Earned This Week = 14

Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = 12

Alcohol Consumption = One Glass Red Wine, One Beer

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Diddly Squat!

February 26, 2014

Diddly Squat.

Diddly Squat is not a squat exercise you do in the gym. In fact, it’s quite the opposite.

did·dly–squat

 noun \-ˌskwät\

: the least amount : anything at all

That’s exactly what I did yesterday. No real reason why. No big excuses for not being super productive. No big catastrophe. I just didn’t want to. So I didn’t. I did however watch the last three episodes of Downton Abbey while cuddling with the dogs (and supervising all outside potty trips).

I did go to Happy Hour to celebrate a girlfriends birthday. Like I’m gonna miss a Happy Hour!!

I had one glass of red wine while most of them enjoyed delicious looking appetizers and drinks. I’ve used most of my extra points throughout the week, and just didn’t feel like I could snack and have more than one glass of wine, so I was being careful and it was a bit of a challenge.

Three years ago we celebrated Renee’s 50th on a crazy Girl’s Lake Weekend! This picture resurfaced on Facebook for her birthday yesterday! We had been shopping all day before we took this photo, (and possibly beverages were included) and decided matching Swimsuit Coverup’s were a great idea for a Photo Shoot???

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Here’s a little more reserve crowd at last night’s Happy Hour. Actually, after I left, I received some text from most of them that leaves me wondering just how reserved the rest of the evening actually was??? 🙂

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I’m hoping to be a little more productive today! There are longer spurts of running in today’s 5K training schedule, so I’ll get in a good workout for certain!

I’m having dinner tonight with a different group of girlfriends, so I’ll try to plan throughout the day so that I can enjoy dinner out and have a glass of wine. A glass of red wine seems to be my “safe” adult beverage. I know how many points it is. I can sip on it and make it last for the evening. And it’s probably my favorite drink to have anyhow.

This is how I’ve spent my morning……they make typing so difficult!

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Here are yesterday’s eats……

 

Breakfast

Oatmeal topped with Warm Cinnamon Apples

Coffee with Frothy Skim Milk

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Snack

Gluten Free Apple Cinnamon Waffle

Black Coffee

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Lunch

Taco Soup

I added Brown Rice, topped with Cheese and Light Sour Cream

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Late Snack

Simple Shrimp Salad

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Late Dinner

Salad with Chicken, Cheese, Avocado and Salsa

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Weight Watcher’s Points Plus

I can eat 26 PPV a day.

I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.

I have an allowance of 49 extra points that I can dip into throughout the week if I choose.

I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.

My Weight Watcher Week Begins on Friday’s

 

Breakfast = Oatmeal topped with Warm Cinnamon Apples, Coffee with Skim Milk (5)

Snack = Waffle, Coffee (3)

Lunch = Soup (10)

Late Snack = Shrimp Salad (5)

Happy Hour = One Glass Red Wine (5)

Late Dinner = Salad (10)

Total = 38

Exercise = none

How many glasses of water I drank = 8

Activity Points Earned for the Day = 0

Activity Points Earned This Week = 10

Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = 20

Alcohol Consumption = One Glass Red Wine

 

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That Darned Dog!

February 25, 2014

Tucker

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We have had Tucker for over two years. I love this silly little dog like crazy. He just wants to play or cuddle. That’s it. He doesn’t growl. He doesn’t show his teeth like any kind of mad dog. He’s nice to his sister, Mishka. I swear, this dog smiles.

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Both dogs, Tucker and Mishka, follow me all day long from room to room. Tucker has even convinced Mishka that picture taking can be fun!

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When we got Tucker, he was 1 1/2 years old, and from what I understand, had spent most of his life in a Kennel or crate because his previous owner traveled a lot. At first, I didn’t want him to just have free range of the house like Mishka did, so I tried the crate. He HATED the crate! He pee’d in it. He pooped in it. Every time I came home, there would be a HUGE mess to clean up. He seemed to lay in his mess and spread it around as much as possible, almost as if to say….”Put me in here? Pay the price!” I would have to clean the crate, and I would have to give him a bath. Occasionally, I needed a shower myself after all of the cleaning up. Sometimes that whole clean up process could take over an hour or more.

Sleep in the crate? Forget about it. He just barked and cried. It all became exhausting! I finally gave up. I felt sorry for him and couldn’t deal with the mess any longer. It seemed as though the crate just scared him. So I gave in and I let him have free range of the house. The way our house is set up, it seemed impossible to “gate” any of the rooms. He seemed to be doing pretty good, and by good, I mean I didn’t seem to notice any accidents. Then I thought, Well, this is great! Maybe he is already house trained and he just didn’t like that crate!

We don’t go into the basement very often, but I soon discovered he was pooping in the basement. I would discover this about once a week. There is no door to the basement, so I couldn’t close it off. I tried to keep both dogs in our bedroom with the door shut, but they just barked the whole time I was gone. If I kept them in the office, they barked the whole time. I know this, because my neighbor was kind enough to tell me on a couple of occasions that my dogs “BARKED THE ENTIRE TIME YOU WERE GONE!!”

I just gave up.

I’m home most of the time, so I became fairly strict about making him go outside every 2 hours. When I run errands, I try to not be gone too long, and if I am, I make arrangements with a neighbor. I’m super lucky to have several neighbors that are willing to come over at the drop of a hat to let my little friends outside.

After going on vacation and the dogs having an unusual schedule for a full week, I really came home to a mess. I found “spots” all over the house. I spent our first day home from vacation spot cleaning the carpets.  I am disgusted and I know I need to do something so this does not happen the next time we go out of town, or even so I can be gone for more than a few hours and know that everything will be okay at home.

I started a new “house training” schedule yesterday.

Can you teach an old dog new tricks? God, I hope so.

I am going to promise myself to be patient in this process, and to be consistent. Prayers for success are appreciated!! I really would like to replace our 15 year old carpet upstairs sometime this year!!

I put these two gates together with a bungee cord in hopes of keeping Tucker in the kitchen and off any carpet while I ran some errands. 

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I knew I couldn’t put him in there alone, so I brought a couple of dog beds in to make it cozy and I put both dogs in the kitchen. Both of these beds actually belong to Mishka, but she spends most of her time in the smaller one.

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Once she realized he was happy in her big bed, she joined him.

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I wasn’t real sure how long this would last.

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I told them to be good and that I would be back shortly. (I always say….”Be good! Mommy will be back!”  I wondered how long they would both actually stay in this bed. I wondered how long Tucker would actually stay in the kitchen without attempting to jump over my little fence!

They pouted. I left.

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When I got home, Tucker was in the front window looking at me. When I walked in the house, perfect little Mishka, who would NEVER pee in the house, was still trapped in the kitchen.

I didn’t find any accidents. The carpet cleaner is coming this week. I go outside EVERY time Tucker does and immediately praise him when he pee’s and I give him a treat!

I’m already exhausted.

 

 Breakfast

Open Faced Egg Sandwich

English Muffin, 3 Egg Whites, 1/4 C. Turkey Sausage, 1 Slice Cheese

Strawberries

 

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Lunch

5 Baked Tostito Scoops

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Topped with One Cup of Taco Soup

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Topped with 1 T. Light Sour Cream

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Snack

Grapes

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Snack

Strawberries

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Dinner

Leftover Mexican Casserole

Topped with Smashed Avocado & Tomatoes

Apple

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Weight Watcher’s Points Plus

I can eat 26 PPV a day.

I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.

I have an allowance of 49 extra points that I can dip into throughout the week if I choose.

I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.

My Weight Watcher Week Begins on Friday’s

 

Breakfast = Breakfast Sandwich, Fruit (6)

Lunch = Soup, Chips, Sour Cream (6)

Snack = Fruit (0)

Snack = un-pictured Small Nonfat Latte (2)

Dinner = Leftover Mexican Casserole, Avocado, Tomato, Apple (11)

Total = 25

Exercise = 5K training on the treadmill

How many glasses of water I drank = 8

Activity Points Earned for the Day = 2

Activity Points Earned This Week = 10

Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = 32

Alcohol Consumption = none

 

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Super Busy Sunday!

February 24, 2014

I dropped off Tess at the airport at 7:00 am on Sunday morning! I wish my car had Auto Pilot, because I’m certain my car knows the route by now! It was a short visit, but a great one, as always.

I had a lot planned for the day. Mike usually works the few Sunday’s before and after vacation, so I keep busy with “To Do List”. I decided to treat myself to breakfast “out” before tackling my list. I bought a Sunday paper (I don’t know the last time I did THAT!) and headed to First Watch for breakfast. It was a great relaxing way to start out my busy Sunday.

After breakfast, I met up with a friend of mine at the park for a nice “chilly” walk outside! The wind was fierce, but once we got our heart rates up, we could tolerate the cold. We walked for about an hour.

Then I headed home to complete a full day of chores, which I did accomplished!

Today’s dinner comes from a friend of mine, Linda. When I had surgery last year, she brought this over for dinner one night. I loved it and she said it was easy to make!  I don’t know why I’ve waited so long to make it. She made it with Ground Turkey Taco meat, and I made it with Crockpot Shredded Mexican Chicken, because I had some made up in the freezer which made this dinner SUPER easy!  I liked her version better, so I’ll have to make it again real soon!

Here are the day’s eats!

 

Breakfast

Egg White Omelet topped with Avocado

Dry Multigrain Toast, Fruit

Coffee with Cream

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Lunch

Morning Star Spicy Black Bean Veggie Burger

Mixed Greens, Salsa, Cheese, Light Ranch

Carrot Chips

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Snack

Chocolate Peanut Butter Banana Shake

4 PPV

Ingredients

1 scoop Vanilla Protein Powder

1/2 Frozen Banana

2 T.  Chocolate PB2

1 Cup Water

1/2 Cup Ice Cubes

Directions

Blend all ingredients in a Blender! Enjoy!

 

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Dinner

Linda’s Easy Mexican Casserole

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Recipe Makes Four Servings

One Serving With Toppings = 11 PPV

Ingredients

30 Baked Tostito Chips, crushed

Taco Meat of your choice..(1 lb. Ground Turkey, or 1 lb. Ground Beef, or….I used 12 oz. of Crockpot Shredded Mexican Chicken, but I think I liked it with Ground Turkey Taco meat better!)

8 oz Light Sour Cream, 8 oz. Low Fat Cottage Cheese (mix these two together)

1/2 Cup Reduced Fat Cheddar Cheese

Directions

Layer one: 15 Crushed Baked Tostito’s 

Layer Two: 1/2 of your Taco Meat of your Choice….

Layer Three: 1/2 of Light Sour Cream and Low Fat Cottage Cheese mixture

Repeat the Three Layers and top with 1/2  Cup of Reduced Fat Cheddar Cheese

Bake at 350 for 30 minutes.

Toppings

Salsa

Shredded Lettuce

One Smashed Avocado with Sea Salt and Lime Juice, divided into Four Servings

 

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Weight Watcher’s Points Plus

I can eat 26 PPV a day.

I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.

I have an allowance of 49 extra points that I can dip into throughout the week if I choose.

I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.

My Weight Watcher Week Begins on Friday’s

 

Breakfast = First Watch Egg White Omelet, Dry MultiGrain Toast, Salsa, Avocado, Coffee with Cream (10)

Lunch = Spicy Black Bean Veggie Burger, Mixed Greens, Cheese, Salsa, Light Ranch (6)

Snack = Chocolate Banana Peanut Butter Protein Shake (4)

Dinner = Linda’s Mexican Casserole (11)

Total = 31

Exercise = Walked 4 miles

How many glasses of water I drank = 9

Activity Points Earned for the Day = 4

Activity Points Earned This Week = 8

Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = 32

Alcohol Consumption = none

I am certain that I NEVER would have walked outside yesterday if my friend, Rebecca, had not recommended it, so to her…I say “Thank YOU!”. It is so much easier for me when I plan exercise with friends.

Is it easier for you to commit to exercise when you know you have a friend counting on you to show up?

(we did not take our dogs, but I thought this was cute)

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A Visit From Aunt Tess!

February 23, 2014

Aunt Tess came home Friday night from Dallas so she could meet her new niece, Charlotte!

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We had the best day Saturday! We slept in, (which I know I shouldn’t need after a week’s vacation, but Tess and I stayed up super late chatting on Friday, so getting up at 10:00 am on Saturday, felt really good), then had coffee, then had lots of visitors! My mom came over. My dad came over. Then baby Charlotte and her brother and mother came over! My mom and dad had not yet met Charlotte, and Aunt Tess hadn’t either. So we spent time passing her around and chatting with her big brother, Alex, who so far, doesn’t seem to be jealous at all, just really proud! Charlotte’s mom, Kate, seemed ready for a little break. It was a great afternoon, and when Charlotte left, I wasn’t quite ready to say goodbye.

After hanging out at the house all day, we decided to meet up with some friends to watch the Kansas/Texas Basketball game. Go KU!!

It was a great Saturday, and I am now headed out the door (it’s 6:00 am) to take Tess to the airport, then meeting a friend for a nice long Sunday morning walk and some good girl chat.

Have a great Sunday!

Here are yesterday’s eats!!

Breakfast

1/2 Peanut Butter Packed Pancake 

(I shared mine with my mom, she was impressed!)

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Lunch

Sweet and Chunky Tuna Salad

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Snack

Leftover Simplest Spaghetti

(…again sharing with my mom….again, she was impressed!)

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Dinner

1/2 Burger, 1/2 Order Sweet Potato Fries

(It’s a sharing kind of day!)

Two Beers

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Weight Watcher’s Points Plus

I can eat 26 PPV a day.

I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.

I have an allowance of 49 extra points that I can dip into throughout the week if I choose.

I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.

My Weight Watcher Week Begins on Friday’s

 

Breakfast = 1/2 Serving Peanut Butter Packed Pancake (3)

Lunch = Tuna (4)

Snack = Simplest Spaghetti Squash Spaghetti (5)

Dinner = 1/2 Burger, 1/2 Order Sweet Potato Fries, Beer (26)

Total = 38

Exercise = none

How many glasses of water I drank = 9

Activity Points Earned for the Day = 0

Activity Points Earned This Week = 4

Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = 37

Alcohol Consumption = 2 Beer’s

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Things I’m Feeling Good About

1. After a 7 day buffet, I went to my Weight Watcher’s Meeting and actually stepped on the scale. (You can take a “No Weigh In Pass” if you want to.)

2. I did NOT let the number on the scale determine my mood for the day. I’m in a really good mood and I’d like to stay that way.

3. Sometimes….if I’ve have a bad week and I am expecting a gain, I’ll eat whatever I want on Thursday because I know I get a fresh start every Friday. I didn’t do that on Thursday. I got right back on plan the first day after vacation.

4. I EXERCISED Friday, and typically Friday is my scheduled “day off” of exercise, and I completely take advantage of that fact, but not this week!

5. I bought a bag of salad and actually ate out of it for lunch! (So many times, I buy these with good intentions and they get thrown away)

 

 Things I’m Thinking About

The Scale

I’ve decided to take a break from it for awhile. I mean, I’ll weigh at my meetings, and I’ll look at the number, but that’s all I’ll do. Look at it. I’m not going to dwell on it and I’m not going to have a big party about it. I’m going to focus more on what I am doing to be healthy. Am I eating food that is good for me? Am I eating food that makes me feel good? Am I drinking enough water? Am I truly making my best effort to exercise? That’s what I am going to focus on for this week. Getting so close to goal in October, then gaining weight over the holidays has played some mind games with me and I just need to refocus.

One Day at a Time

This week I am going to focus on One Day at a Time. No worries about next weeks weigh in. No worries about how many points I am going to be eating on Tuesday….or Wednesday…..or Saturday!! No worries about what exercise I am doing next week. I am just focusing on “today”, today. Oh, sure, I know that some planning is involved to be successful, but I just feel like I’ve over worried myself like crazy since gaining some weight. I’d like to allow myself to just follow the plan and stop worrying. 

I’ve had two really successful days in a row, and so soon after vacation, that feels great!

Here are yesterdays eats!

 

Breakfast

Un-pictured Nonfat Latte and Luna Bar

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Snack

Banana with 1 T. Better n’ Peanut Butter

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Lunch

Tuna Salad, Carrot Chips, Lettuce, Avocado, Light Ranch

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Dinner

Simplest Spaghetti with Squash, Red Wine

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Weight Watcher’s Points Plus

I can eat 26 PPV a day.

I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.

I have an allowance of 49 extra points that I can dip into throughout the week if I choose.

I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.

My Weight Watcher Week Begins on Friday’s

 

Breakfast = Luna Bar (5), Nonfat Latte (3)

Snack = Banana, Better n’ Peanut Butter (1)

Lunch = Tuna Salad, Carrots, 1/8 Avocado, 2 T. Light Ranch (5)

Dinner = Spaghetti Squash Spaghetti, Red Wine (10)

Total = 24

Exercise = Walk/Run 3 Miles

How many glasses of water I drank = 9

Activity Points Earned for the Day = 4

Activity Points Earned This Week = 4

Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = 49

Alcohol Consumption = 1 glass Red Wine

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“love the life you live, live the life you love”

Right Back In the Game!

February 21, 2014

I have to admit, the first day back from vacation and spending most of the day at home, it was hard to not eat all day. Sometimes those days I spend at home getting stuff done around the house, I really struggle to not visit the pantry and fridge in between each thing I’m trying to get done. I promised myself that when I got up Thursday morning, that I would be diligent about counting points and keeping within my points range. I know when I go to my Weight Watchers meeting this morning, that my weight is going to be in the 160’s. I’d like to be one of those people that goes on vacation expecting to maintain my weight, but I’m not, and I know this. I know that when I go on vacation to an all inclusive resort for one full week, I am going to enjoy my food and beverages without counting points. Gaining weight on vacation is the price I pay for the choices that I made, and I know this. Facts are facts. But now I’m prepared to get right back in the game. 

Here is the successful day that I had yesterday!

Breakfast  

Egg White Omelet with Veggies and Cheese, Grapes

Un-Pictured Coffee with Skim Milk

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Lunch

HyVee Salad Bar

Mixed Greens, Peppers, Edamame, Chicken, Taco Meat

Kidney Beans, Salsa, Sour Cream

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Snack

Grapes

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Dinner

The Simplest Spaghetti 

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Weight Watcher’s Points Plus

I can eat 26 PPV a day.

I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.

I have an allowance of 49 extra points that I can dip into throughout the week if I choose.

I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.

My Weight Watcher Week Begins on Friday’s

 

Breakfast = Egg White Omelet, Grapes, Coffee with Skim Milk (5)

Lunch = Salad Bar (10)

Snack = Grapes (0)

Dinner = The Simplest Spaghetti, Two Servings (10)

Total = 25

Exercise = None. I made excuses all damn day. I’ll do it after grocery shopping. I’ll do it after I write my blog. I’ll do it after I get one more load of laundry in. I’ll do it right after I call my mom. I’ll do it right after I finish unpacking. Oh, crap. It’s time to start dinner. I’ll do it after dinner. Mike’s on his way home. I’ll do it after we chat and have dinner. THREE EPISODES OF AMERICAN IDOL TO WATCH????? I’ll do it right after we watch those. 10:30??? I’ll do it TWICE tomorrow. I suck.

How many glasses of water I drank = 9

Activity Points Earned for the Day = 0

Alcohol Consumption = None. Vacation alcohol withdrawals!!

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“love the life you live, live the life you love”

Cancun 2014!

February 20, 2014

Geezzzz, where to even start. Who doesn’t love a vacation?

We do! We do!! 

You just can’t beat a beach vacation in the middle of winter!

The Cancun airport is AWESOME! There’s a bar RIGHT outside of the airport doors!! HOLLLA!!

Beer’s in hand, waiting for the shuttle, let the vacation begin!!

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We’ve gone on several trips with this group of friends, and we are blessed to have such a great and laid back group of friends to travel with! We’re already talking about our next adventures.

Once we got checked in……the food and drinks were everywhere!

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Here is our first view of the beach from our room on the 12th Floor of the HardRock! I loved this view!

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I had coffee on the balcony in the mornings and watched the sunrise, and I ended the evenings looking at the moon shining on the ocean.

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I loved sitting up there listening to the ocean…..

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Sitting on the beach watching the sunrise was pretty darn relaxing…..

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I found myself a cozy spot about 6:00 am on this morning. (People are MAD about saving a spot!! Relax people, it’s vacation!!)

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Then I hardly left this spot all day…..(they bring your drinks to you!!!)

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The sand was so soft…….

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…..and the water was beautiful……

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They had these great little Cabana’s you could reserve for the day…..so one day we did that! 🙂

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I could pull the curtains around just a bit when the sun was just too much (I’m not much of a Sun Goddess!)

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There was one really big pool with two swim up bars….

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Not a bad place to have a drink, huh??

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The walks along the beach were great!

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I do love the sand between my toes…..(and I think this picture turned out pretty darn cool)

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Being on the beach is my favorite part of a “Beach” Vacation….but we did do a few other things too!

The boys played golf one day.

Mike and I had a couples massage one day.

I got a pedicure one day.

Everybody did a little shopping here and there.

We even checked out the Cancun Walmart!

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We went to CocoBongo one night! If you’ve never been, and you get the chance sometime….GO!! It was awesomely crazy. It’s this stage show in a Dance Club type theme. You literally stand all night (the show starts at like 11:00 pm and last until after 3:00 am!!!!) while drinking and watching performance after performance! It’s a wicked show! The time flew by like crazy!

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They pull people up (people like us!) to dance on the bar. They have dancers and performers coming out of the ceiling at you like this little guy! I took this picture while he was coming straight down from the ceiling right at us! The show was great!

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This guy also came out of the ceiling and danced on the table our drinks were sitting on!

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Our view did NOT suck.

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It was crazy there…….

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On Valentines Night, we celebrated the marriage of one of the couples that went on our trip! They eloped on New Year’s Eve! The HardRock was great about satisfying any wish you have! We had this entire roof top to ourselves for a private dinner for the 10 of us! We had an entire bar, a nice full staff, and they even had music for us! It was a great night! One of my favorites!

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On another night, we all made reservations for the Romantic Lobster Dinner on the Beach!

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Of course, we had our usual silly photo’s…..

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I can’t pick a favorite….

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The boys don’t like our silly photo’s as much as we do, but we make them participate anyhow.

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We ate lots of yummy snacks…..

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and lots of yummy meals…..

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I didn’t take pictures of ALL of the food that I ate…..

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But I did take just a few….

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I did get in a salad here and there….

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They serve lots of sweet treats too!

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The presentation was awesome!

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This Pumpkin Brûlée’ didn’t taste like pumpkin, but it was yummy!

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These are just a few of the many (MANY) drinks we had…..

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At Coco Bongo, confetti falls from the ceiling ALL NIGHT LONG!! (right smack into your drinks!!)

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I’m a Dos Equis fan….

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This Mojito at the swim up bar wasn’t too shabby either….

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This was already on the table when we were seated for our Lobster dinner on the beach!

Then they poured Champagne!

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Valentine’s Dinner drinks!

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One last drink at the airport coming home….

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I didn’t get ANY great group photo’s, but I do like this picture of me and the hubby!

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Vacation was great. The sun felt so good. It’s always nice to get away. 

I ate a lot. I drank a lot. I only walked the beach a few times, and I wouldn’t really call it a workout. I did drink a ton of water. I tried to eat a lot of fruit, but 24 hour accessibility to food and drink at an all inclusive resort, is a challenge to say the least, I don’t care how much you weigh or what you eat on a regular basis!!

I am going to my Weight Watchers meeting Friday morning. I have an idea where I will be. 

I do know this……

Vacation’s make me happy……

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“love the life you live, live the life you love”

We’re Going On Vacation!!!!

February 11, 2014

We are lucky to have a great group of friends that we have been vacationing with for the last few years.

We’ve been to Mexico a couple of times with this group of friends, we’ve been to Memphis and Nashville with this group, we’ve been to the lake, and last year, we all took a trip to the Dominican Republic, and stayed at The Hard Rock Hotel and Casino! We had an awesome vacation, but we also had a little unfortunate situation that led to us getting our money back AND…..getting a Free Vacation this year!!!

You can read all about last year’s vacation HERE!

All I can think about now is doing this again……

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and maybe a little of this….

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Vacation is a great time to enjoy some peace, not think about the stresses at home, and just relax. But I know on vacation, when I’m lying there on the beach, my mind gets busy thinking about what I am going to work on when I get home. A project, something to paint, something to organize, a blog post….whatever. I already have some ideas in my head about things I want to plan and do, and I’m looking forward to sharing those with you next week, when I get home.

I’m officially taking a week off!

I’ll tweet some stuff so you can follow me on Twitter!

And I’m certain I’ll post a few pic’s on Instagram, so follow me there too!

I got to visit Charlotte for a few minutes last night, and I’m on my way to see her now……

Can you even stand how cute she is??? She is going to look so different in a WEEK!!!

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 Breakfast

I like these, but they are 8 PPV, so I only had a half of one.

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1/2 Bagel, 3 Egg Whites, 1/4 Avocado smashed with Sea Salt, Orange, Black Coffee

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Lunch

Chocolate Peanut Butter Banana Smoothie

Simple Breakfast Idea No. 2 

Day Two of Two Weeks of Breakfast Ideas for 5 PPV or less.

 

 

This reminds me of a Chocolate Shake that one of my friend’s would make us in Junior High and she would top it with Granola. It was soooo good!!

1 Scoop of Whey Vanilla Protein Powder (3 PPV)

2 Tablespoons of Chocolate PB2 Powder (1 PPV)

1 Cup of Cold Water (0 PPV)

1/2 Cup of Ice (0 PPV)

1/2 Frozen Banana (0 PPV)

1/4 Cup of Kashi Cereal (1 PPV)

Total = 5 PPV

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Snack’s

Carrots, Hummus, Dill Pickles

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Dinner

Taco Soup

1/4 Avocado, 3 HUGE Blue Corn Chips

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Weight Watcher’s Points Plus

I can eat 26 PPV a day.

I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.

I have an allowance of 49 extra points that I can dip into throughout the week if I choose.

I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.

My Weight Watcher Week Begins on Friday’s

 

Breakfast = !/2 Bagel, Egg Whites, Avocado, Coffee (7)

Lunch = Smoothie (4)

Snack = Veggies, Pickles, Hummus (3)

Dinner =  Taco Soup, Chips, Avocado (12)

Total = 26

Exercise = none……I did run a LOT of errands and parked far away?? Work with me, people.

How many glasses of water I drank = 8

Activity Points Earned for the Day = 0

Activity Points Earned This Week = 3

Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = 41

Alcohol Consumption = none

 

This just made me giggle……

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“love the life you live, live the life you love”