A Rainy Day, A Coffee Shop

October 15, 2017

It was rainy and cold on Tuesday, so I decided to soak up most of my afternoon in a cozy coffee shop.

I had a morning appointment with my OBYN (I’m becoming all too familiar with sitting in a waiting room ready to see the doc) then I spent a few hours in a coffee shop, then to my afternoon appointment at the plastic surgery office, where we discuss my tissue expanders and any post-op questions.

Spending the time in between appointments at the coffee shop was relaxing.

I love this place. Tables and chairs to choose from, or big leather chairs to curl up in and little rooms with cozy chairs and lamps that make you want to kick off your shoes. I didn’t, but I though about it!

They have all sorts of yummy items on the menu.

I love black coffee and I love a Pour Over, so I started with that.

How cute is this cup of coffee??

 

After an hour or so of catching up on the blog and reading emails, I ordered the Butternut Squash Soup. I think I’m going to order this every time I see it on a menu this Fall. This was really really good. I might have to go back!

 

After more coffee, I headed out in the rain to my next appointment. Rainy and 46 outside. That was Tuesday. Yesterday it was in the high 70’s? We may have even reached 80. Today, the 50’s. Such a variety! Flip Flops or boots???

 

After a long day away from the house and a late lunch, I was looking for dinner options in our freezer.

I found a couple of Tilapia fillets and this bag of root Vegetables.

They were sampling these when I was in Trader Joe’s last week with this seasoning. Add a salad and we’ve got dinner!

 

Breakfast – 11 SP

Butternut Squash Soup at the coffee shop.This was delicious.

I didn’t ask for the nutritional information, so I guessed on SmartPoints according to the Panera Autumn Soup.

 

Lunch – 6 SP

My attempt at Potato/Cauliflower Soup, Scallions, Bacon and Roasted Plantains.

I made a ton of this soup the other day. I finally took what was left and put it in the freezer. I still plan to make a better tasting, more attractive low SmartPoint Potato soup and share the recipe. One day anyhow….

 

I decided to have a few crunchy Trader Joe’s Roasted Plantains with this too.

 

Dinner – 12 SP

Tilapia, Salad and Root Veggies

This isn’t so pretty, but dinner tasted so good. I haven’t stepped outside the box much lately in variety, so I think dinner tasted so good because it was foods that we just haven’t had in a very long time. Dinner was a hit!

 

Snack – 7 SP

Un-Pictured Cider

 

Okay, more blog post to come. Trying to play catch up!

Daily SmartPoints Total = 36

 
2017 Goals
Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

“love the life you live, live the life you love”

Back to Work!

October 10, 2017

It felt great to go to my employee meeting on Sunday, but it felt even better to get back to Leading Weight Watcher meetings on Monday!

After a little planning time at home, I was out the door.

It was so nice to see all of my members and receive such great hugs from everyone. I love my members! I love that job! I love my co-workers!

I work a mid-morning meeting and a late afternoon meeting on Monday, so in between the two, I got my walk in.

Nothing bad happened yesterday. I know. It’s just weird.

Have a great day!!

Here is what I ate! 

Breakfast – 4 SP

So I guess I am really enjoying this bar! I ordered a case of them yesterday! I also ordered the Pumpkin Spice!

 

Lunch – 12 SP

Over the weekend, I bought a Pre-made salad at the grocery store that included Spinach, Tomato, Mozzarella and a small container of Balsamic Glaze.

I never did eat it.

I put it to good use for lunch on Monday.

 

I added Egg, Avocado and Bacon. Perfect lunch.

 

I took my scale out and weighed the added ingredients. I’m all about the tracking this week!

 

Dinner – 19 SP

Dinner was out and this is a guess on SmartPoints.

Chicken Fajita

Red Wine

I passed on the cheese, sour cream and tortilla, but did eat the guac.

 

Daily SmartPoints Total = 35

 
2017 Goals
Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

“love the life you live, live the life you love”

Fall Fever

October 10, 2017

Forgive my boring post. It lacks any humor what so ever and it is a short one. It just feels so darned good to be back tracking and blogging daily, even if I have nothing exciting to blog about it.

Let me be honest. I feel like I had so much bad news to share there for a while, that having no bad news to share is a really kick ass day.

I spent Sunday morning on the deck. I could have sat there for hours. We are having a variety of temps here in KC right now, but those cooler days are some of my favorites.

I love all things Fall and it feels so good to be enjoying football games, chili, fire pits, boots and jeans.

I had planned to grill out, but October has me wanting soup. I decided to come up with a low SmartPoint Soup, but it looked like baby food when it was ready to eat.

I found an easy recipe and used it as a base recipe. My soup tasted good, but it really did look like baby food, and it could use a few tweaks before I would call it a recipe.

I cooked riced Cauliflower in Vegetable broth, then pureed it.

I added potatoes, carrots, salt and pepper and garlic powder. I let the veggies cook for about 20 minutes until tender.

I topped my soup with chives and bacon. That is about as easy as it gets.

My baby food tasted like big people food. I’ll work on this recipe and see if I can make it more appealing and share worthy.

After soup, I went to an employee Weight Watcher meeting. That is the first time I’ve been to anything Weight Watcher employee related in almost six weeks and it felt great to see everyone and get myself back to work!

Have a great day!

This is what I had to eat on Sunday…..

Breakfast – 4 SP

Kids Berry Blast RXBar

I thought this bar was 5 SmartPoints, but it is only 4! Happy Dance.

 

Lunch – 3 SP

Egg White Omelet topped with Smashed Avocado and Everything But the Bagel seasoning from Trader Joe’s, a Pear topped with 1 tsp of Chocolate Almond Butter and a few blackberries.

 

Dinner – 8 SP

Spinach Salad with Tomato, Mozzarella and Balsamic Glaze along side my Soup.

 

Snack – 7 SP

Un-Pictured 4″ Sub Sandwich at my Weight Watcher Employee meeting.

Daily SmartPoints Total = 22

 
2017 Goals
Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

“love the life you live, live the life you love”

A Saturday Outside

October 8, 2017

It was a great Saturday! The temperature was right around 70, which is my favorite temp, so I did all that I could to be outside.

Normalcy felt really good yesterday.

I went on a walk and soaked up all of that fresh air! I walked just over 3 miles. That’s the first 3 mile walk that I’ve done since my surgery. I’ve discovered that standing and/or walking is actually the most comfortable position to be in! Go figure. 

 

My walk gave me a huge burst of energy and I got all sorts of things done!

Laundry, vacuuming, I finally changed the bed sheets, organizing for this week, trimming the lawn and I even made it to the car wash!

 

I knew I’d want dinner outside, so Mike and I started thinking about where we’d like to go for a date night. 

We ended up on a patio where I enjoyed Salmon and Wine, two of my favorites.

When we got home, we headed over to the neighbors to sit by the fire pit, another favorite outside thing I like to do!

Before I hopped in bed, I checked my steps for the day!

Whoo Whoo!! I haven’t had that many steps in weeks!!

 

I haven’t worn my fitbit and earned activity points in a while either, so this felt great!

 

I’m enjoying my coffee on the deck right now and Mike is mowing. It feels so good to have some normalcy around here!!

I’m looking forward to another productive day and pondering what to cook up on the grill.

 

What’s the weather like where you are?? 

I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday planned!

Here are yesterday’s eats….

Breakfast – 8 SP

Pumpkin Oatmeal

 

Super Easy and I loved using Syrup as my sweetener!

I cooked the Oatmeal as directed, then added the pumpkin and spices and gave it a good stir, then topped it with the walnuts and syrup.

 

Lunch – 7 SP

One Cup of  Turkey Sweet Potato Chili, 10 Roasted Plantains, Carrots, Celery, 1 tsp Almond Butter, Strawberries and Kiwi Berries

 

 

Dinner – 18 SP

Caesar Salad with Salmon, bread and  Wine

I ordered the salad with the dressing on the side. Typically I would send it back when it comes out wrong, but we were with friends and I wanted to eat with everyone else, and sometimes the waiting for your meal to come back out can be awkward, so I just ate the salmon and about half of the salad. I think the waitress filled my water glass three times, so I decided I was rinsing out all of the extra calories. lol

 

After Dinner – 7 SP

Honey Whiskey on the Rocks…..by the fire. So good.

Daily SmartPoints Total = 40

 
2017 Goals
Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

“love the life you live, live the life you love”

Since life went a little whacko these last several months, daily tracking of my food and activity in my Weight Watcher App fell to the bottom of my priority list.

I’m feeling much more like myself and adding tracking back into my day sounds like a great way to pass the next couple of months while I anxiously await my reconstructive surgery in December.

This “in between surgery” time feels really weird. It’s like I’m “on hold” with life and unsure of what to do with myself. Life will get back to normal and then go backwards again for a bit. I’ve decided the best way to not feel “on hold” is to go back to the routine that I know best.

My Weight Watcher week begins on Friday, so I tracked yesterday and it felt good to feel in control of my day.

 

Do You Track?

I was reminded yesterday that tracking a meal at a restaurant can be a challenge and I was also reminded that sometimes making your best guess when tracking food or activity is the way to do it.

We talk a lot about tracking in the Weight Watcher meetings and how important it can be whether you are losing weight or you are at your goal weight

Tracking brings awareness to what you are eating and it is also a great accountability tool.

Tracking is a great tool, but it should be quick and it should not add stress to your day. Nobody needs extra stress.

Weight Watchers has designed many tools to make living a healthy life easier, and tracking is one of those tools.

There is an enormous list of foods in the app that also includes restaurant choices. With so many foods listed, there are times when it is difficult to find exactly what you are looking for. There are a few ways to maneuver through that without it taking a lot of time or feeling like a stressful chore.

Don’t overthink it.

  • If you are tracking a bagel, and you see three different bagels listed with three different Smartpoints values, make your best guess on the bagel that you are eating and track it. 
  • If you are eating mexican food at a restaurant, and that restaurant isn’t listed, find a similar restaurant and make your best guess.
  • If the restaurant you are eating at is listed, but you can’t find the meal that you are eating, break down the items in your meal as best as you can, track it and move on.

 

If tracking feels like a chore for you, I hope this helps. If you are new to WW, tracking does become easier with time.

I’m heading out the door for a walk, then I’m going to track it!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Here are yesterday’s eats…..

 

Late Breakfast – 21 SP?

This is a great example of a guesstimate meal when eating out. When in doubt, I add a point or two, which I did yesterday.

I have no idea how many potatoes or bacon are buried under those eggs. I have no idea how the potatoes are prepared. I don’t know how much butter is on the toast. I made my best guess by quickly breaking it down, tracked it, and loved every bite! 

Farmhouse Hash, hold the Cheese at First Watch.

Potatoes, Bacon, Tomatoes, Onions, Eggs, Avocado and 1/2 Slice of the Toast.

Breakfast was delish!

 

Lunch – 5 SP

Loving these mini bars for my sweet tooth!

 

Dinner – 8 SP

This is one of my fall favorites and the recipe is on my blog!

Turkey Sweet Potato Chili  topped with 30 g Avocado and 10 Roasted Plantains from Trader Joe’s.

 

Daily SmartPoints Total = 34

 
2017 Goals
Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

 

“love the life you live, live the life you love”

A Brief Update!

October 5, 2017

(This is not a sponsored post. I just like to share where I find some of my favorite things!)

I had big plans for this to be a productive few days preparing to go back to leading Weight Watcher meetings next week, blogging daily, meal planning, grocery shopping, walking and getting in some Yoga.

Here is what I’ve actually done.

Two doctor’s appointments on two different days that took up most of the day, worked on getting my house somewhat back in order (I don’t know when I changed the sheets last. I can’t believe I just told you that), did my arm exercises and called it Yoga, sat down to write a blog but ended up reading a lot of info on breast cancer, DIEP Flap surgery and breast cancer reoccurrence (I didn’t think I would feel so anxious about my upcoming surgery and I didn’t realize I’d be concerned about cancer reoccurrence, but I guess that I am), and I’ve enjoyed several long conversations with family and friends. I didn’t do any “meal planning”, but I have been eating really healthy foods, so at least there’s that!

I won’t bore you with all of the details of the last few days like I typically do, but I will share some happy news with you and tell you what I’ve been eating.

Okay, actually I WAS going to bore you with all of the details of the last several days and what was discussed in each of my long conversations, but I had it all typed out late late last night, then lost it all. I took it as a sign that I was going into too much detail. lol

 

Happy News…..

Kate and Shelby Update!

I spent Wednesday visiting our daughter Kate and hanging out at her house. After the house flooding twice since the end of July and all that it took to get the house put back together, they were finally able to move back into their home about 10 days ago. There are a few things yet to be done, but they are home at last.

Happy Happy!

 

It’s been a great opportunity for them to declutter and they have found all sorts of great ways to do that! They were so fortunate to have so much furniture donated that it allowed them to buy a few new items that would help them get organized.

I love this piece from IKEA under the TV. Such a great place to store toys for the kids and it makes clean up so easy!!

 

I also LOVE this IKEA piece! It’s a shoe rack! Open up those two big bottom drawers and drop your shoes right in there. If I had little ones, I’d be ALL over this!!

 

This room belongs to Char and Sophia and I think that it is so cute! The mirror and dresser were donate. Thanks Steph and Bonnie!

It is the perfect height and the girls love being able to see thiemselves in it. 

 

Also donated, two recliners! Thanks again ladies! 

One recliner is in the living room and one is in another bedroom that isn’t quite finished. Kate and Shelby found this couch on Craigslist for $200! It’s in perfect condition. They are still looking for a few things to make this room just the way they’d like, but I think it looks great!

I had a great day hanging out with Kate at her house and seeing her happy to be back home.

 

Food

I can’t seem to get myself to “track” for a full day and I’m not taking pictures of everything that I eat, but I have been much more aware of what I’m eating and I can feel the better choices in my body.

No recipes here today, just a few simple ideas.

I’ve been eating a really late breakfast, then an earlier dinner, then a snack here and there.

Breakfast/Lunch

I’m on an Omelet kick right now because it is quick, it keeps me full and it is easy. Below are a couple that I’ve had lately.

I topped this Egg White Omelet (5 Egg Whites) with Avocado and Everything but the Bagel Seasoning from Trader Joe’s and had fruit on the side with the Mixed Nut Butter from Trader Joe’s.

This plate….

7 SmartPoints

 

I topped this Egg and Egg White (1 Egg, 3 Egg Whites) Omelet with Avocado.

This plate…..

5 SmartPoints

 

Dinnertime

I picked up a couple of Rotisserie Chickens at Whole foods and took the meat off of them as soon as I got home. I knew if I wasn’t actually “meal planning” this week, then I would at least have an easy and healthy option available for quick meals. I also grabbed a lot of veggies to cook up!

Roasted Veggies and Chicken

For this dinner, I roasted White Sweet Potatoes, Purple Sweet Potatoes, Tri Colored Carrots and Brussels Sprouts with Olive Oil and Sea Salt.

(Save even more time by scrubbing your veggies really well and leaving the skin on the potatoes and the carrots!)

I tossed the Roasted Veggies in a skillet with some of the Rotisserie Chicken. I really just toss it all in the skillet to heat up the chicken. I added a little Olive Oil, organic Veggie broth from Trader Joe’s and Sea Salt so the chicken had a little moisture and gave everything a bit more flavor.

This made dinner for two nights.

 

Easy and Yum.

 

Sautéed Veggies and Chicken

For this dinner I sautéed Mushrooms and Asparagus in Olive Oil in a skillet while cooking Quinoa in Organic Vegetable broth from Trader Joe’s in the pan beside it. I mixed the veggies and cooked Quinoa in a skillet, added some Rotisseire Chicken, Roasted Almonds (Trader Joe’s) and Dried Cranberries (from Wholefoods and sweetened with Apple Juice). Thanks for this dinner idea Becky!

Dinner was ready in 15 minutes!

This also made dinner for two nights.

 

Snacks

Convenient, all natural ingredients, taste great!

5 SmartPoints

 

Love a new Food Find! I found these at Walmart.

0 SmartPoints

 

Need a sweet treat without the sugar?

These are tasty, but be careful.

6 Bites = 4 SmartPoints.

 

Okay, that’s a Brief Update! I’ve GOT to go change those sheets!!

I found these in my bag of goodies from the conference last week and I love them!

Hugs to all!

2017 Goals

Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

 

“love the life you live, live the life you love”

 

I crossed that line of “I feel like crap” to” I feel like myself and I think I got my spunk back!” in the last few days.

I’m four weeks post op of my double mastectomy and finally feeling like myself.

It has been a very busy five days, but I feel really good physically and mentally and I’m looking forward to these next two and a half months before my reconstruction surgery in December.

I went to my girlfriends farm Tuesday through Thursday. We sipped on coffee, sipped on wine, ate yummy food, hunted bittersweet, snuggled up around the fire outside, listened to music, shared stories and got a little sleep in there too. I’m never ready to come home when I go there.

This is the only picture that I took…..but it sums up my two days of peace and quiet and enjoying being outside.

 

Chemo? Nope.

My oncologist called while I was at the farm to let me know that I do NOT need Chemo!!!!

YAY!! In the Cancer world, I really do feel like one of the lucky ones to not need any radiation or chemo.

 

The Hub’s

Mike’s test results came back and the bit of fascia that was removed from his shoulder last week did have some of the cancerous tumor in it, but the layer of muscle that was removed below the fascia DID NOT!! YAY!!

Taking that extra layer to test was a great decision by the doc. Thanks Doc!! Mike will do follow up in one year. So happy that the doc could sew him up and not have to do the skin graft!

So much happy news!!

 

L.I.V. (Living in Vitality)

On Friday I attended an all day conference called L.I.V.  This was their 20th year. My therapist (I think everyone should have a therapist. Her name is Hope. No Joke! I love this woman!) told me about the conference several months ago and she thought that I might enjoy it. I didn’t hesitate and bought a ticket.

I plan to attend next year and every year after that! I loved it! If you are local, I strongly encourage you to go too! So much great health and wellness info for women of all ages. The event sells out, so think about it and buy your tickets early!

 

The day included…

  • Breakfast with Key Note Speaker, Heidi Hanna, PhD. Topic – Optimism – Stress & Recharge. She was awesome!
  • Breakout sessions to choose from…I went to the Meditation one with Tom Jacobs. Loved it. I plan to visit his Retreat House soon!
  • Lunch with a Key Note Speaker, Karyn Ruth White, Humorist and Motivational Speaker. The importance of finding humor in all things. Loved!!
  • Breakout Sessions to choose from….I went to the Essential Oil one. Loved it. So much info!!
  • Afternoon Keynote Speaker, Glennon Doyle, Author, Truth Teller, Hope Spreader. Loved them all, but she was my favorite!!

Tickets were $50. Not only did that include breakfast, lunch, coffee, water and tea throughout the day, there were also little surprises on the chairs and tables and I came home with a great big bag full of goodies!!!

I wasn’t sure how I’d feel after a few days away from home, then an all day conference, but I felt great! Tired, but happy.

Mike and I relaxed on the deck with a cold beer when I got home and caught each other up on our day. It felt good for both of us to feel normal.

 

Back to Work

I won’t be back in the WW meeting room this week, but I will spend a lot of time this week preparing to go back next week. I’m going to hold off on going back to the food truck just yet. There is a lot of stretching and moving around in that little truck and it’s a fast pace that I’m not sure my body is ready for.

 

Breast Cancer Awareness Month

I can not think of a better month for me to be able to go back to work! I am eager to get back into the WW meeting room to encourage my members to continue down the road of healthy living and share the importance of annual mammograms and self breast exams. Early detection can make a big difference and being strong mentally and physically can make for an easier recovery if surgery is required.

As a Weight Watcher Ambassador, we receive lots of great freebies! While I was away at the farm, my Breast Cancer Month freebies were delivered!

 

As an Ambassador, I received this great shirt! My pretend boobs don’t look too shabby in this shirt!

 

The Tea Tumbler, Tea and the Everyday Bag are available while supplies last in the meeting room and online at Weight Watchers.

 

I love my hot tea every night, so I’m looking forward to trying these flavors! Love the Tea Tumbler!

 

I can think of a gazillion uses for this bag!!

 

Breast Cancer Walks

I will be participating in the Making Strides Agains Breast Cancer, Walk in Kansas City on October 28, 2017 with my Weight Watcher Family.

If you are local, and you would like to join me, click HERE! I would love to have you walk with me! You do not need to be a Weight Watcher member to participate on my team. Men and women are all welcome!

Walk with me for Those Who Can’t.

 

Friends

I felt so energized, I even went with a few girlfriends out to the vineyard yesterday afternoon. Yes, we have a few of those in Kansas.

It was the perfect day to sit outside with the girls.

 

So there you have it.

I feel really great right now. I’m preparing to go back to work. Mike and I both got great news this week. I got a lotta free stuff!!

It’s Breast Cancer Awareness month and I want you all to feel your boobs and tell your family and friends to do the same!!

I counted SmartPoints today and I’ll share with you what I ate in tomorrows post!

Happy Sunday!!

 

2017 Goals
Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

“love the life you live, live the life you love”

Stitches and Sleep

September 26, 2017

The Hubs

Thursday was Mike’s procedure and I would have updated you sooner, but honestly, it was a really long day and the only thing that the two of us did for the next three days was rest, and by rest, I mean sleep with a little bit of eating thrown in there. I may have overdone so went back to the narcotics for sleep, and Mike was sent home with his own med cocktail. I feel like we lost three days of life just sleeping.

On Thursday, we had to arrive at the hospital at 11:30 am for a 1:30 pm procedure.

The surgeon had two surgeries before Mike’s and they both had some unexpected complications (those patients are fine, we did ask), so the surgeon was running behind and Mike’s 1:30 pm surgery began after 5:00 pm. It was a really long day and we got home at 9:00 pm.

When Mike was finally moved from the waiting room back to prepare for surgery, they rolled a recliner in for me to sit in!! They even brought me a warm blanket! It was FREEZING in there!!

 

Okay, back to Mike.

 

(Okay, I know I said back to Mike, but we were in that room for over 2 hours, so I was delighted to be in a recliner with a warm blanket and Mike was napping. It was kinda like home, without the snacks. You can’t eat before surgery, and I was being polite and waiting for his surgery to start before I ate any of my snacks that I packed!! During Mike’s surgery, they took me to a waiting room that they don’t use often where I again, could sit in a recliner! The folks at KU Med are awesome! I reclined, enjoyed a coffee and my snacks.)

Okay, for realzzz…Mike.

The surgeon had decided that he would take a small layer of muscle (after the MOHS procedure last week) to send off to test to see if the cancer had spread and then he stitched Mike up, so no skin graft. Yay!! Mike’s shoulder will be tight for a while and sore where they took out the small amount of muscle, but we are very happy that he did not need the skin graft.

We will get results on the muscle that was sent in for testing in a week or so.

Now we just wait and hope that the test shows that the cancer did not spread and be happy that he was able to stitch him up and not do a skin graft!

 

Me

Those first two weeks after my surgery, I was surprised and encouraged at how well I was feeling each day.

The last week and a half hasn’t been so great. I have a burning sensation throughout my chest that won’t go away (unless I take a muscle relaxer and a pain pill, and I hate how groggy those make me feel) and now I have some random shooting pains in my chest. I despise the tissue expanders and every time I stand, everything in my chest area hurts. The most comfortable position is to sit and do nothing, or to simply hold one boob in each hand when I walk.

It’s hard to do dishes, laundry, pee or drive while holding both of your fake boobs.

Friday, I went to a speciality bra shop for Mastectomy patients and bought two new bras, but they don’t feel much better than anything I already had.

Today I went to Target and bought two bra’s that are better than the ones that I bought on Friday, but they still don’t feel amazing.

I seem to feel my best (happiest) when I’m busy because keeping busy keeps my mind off of feeling uncomfortable.

I also find myself exhausted quickly, then frustrated.

There is this fine line between resting, and working a daily routine back in slowly. I either feel like I’m doing nothing (I hate that feeling) or like I’ve done too much.

I can’t seem to find where I cross the line.

I know this is all a part of healing, but I’m beginning to feel impatient and frustrated.

I’m unclear if the pain that I am feeling will feel this way until my surgery in December, or if this is all temporary?

I’m working with the doc to try a combo of drugs that does not include the narcotics. Narcotics are not my friend, I guess.

 

Maybe Later?

I joined a Facebook group all about DIEP Flap and now I’ve decided to leave the group. I’m having that surgery in December and I was looking for some support from others that have had the surgery.

There is a lot of great advice, but there are also a lot of stories of women struggling with complications and I don’t think those are the stories that I want to hear right now, so I’ve decided that’s not the place for me. Besides, I was becoming obsessed with reading the post and starting to feel anxious about my decisions instead of confident. I need to feel confident right now.

 

Scheduling

I was supposed to have an appointment with the oncologist tomorrow to get results back from the Onco test DX to determine if I need chemo or not, and they called on Friday to tell me that they don’t have those result yet, so they have cancelled my appointment.

Waiting sucks. 

I’m not in a great mood about cancer right now. Can you tell?

I hate to write Debbie Downer post. Sorry.

I’m cranky.

Fun

Let me end this post with Mike got stitches and did not have a skin graft. Yay!!

I am doing Yoga (light Yoga)  and walking slowly on the treadmill.

I am going to my girlfriends farm tomorrow for a couple of nights where we would typically drink beer, sit by the fire and ride 4 wheelers.

This trip I will be relaxing, sitting by the fire and enjoying my friends. I will not be 4 wheeling.

(Remember a few years back when I went to the farm, rode 4 wheelers, fell off and broke my collar bone? Ahhh…the good old days.)

I’ll check back in a few days.

Food

This arrived from my Meal Train on Wednesday night and it was awesome!!

Stuffed Spaghetti Squash and Green Bean Salad. I’ve requested the recipes. Both really good!

Thank you Stacey!!

 

This arrived from the Meal Train tonight!

Slow Cooker Apple Bacon BBQ Pulled Pork from Emilybites Blog

Thank you Niki! This was delicious!!

 

Hugs to you all!!

I’m looking forward to time with friends.

 
2017 Goals
Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

“love the life you live, live the life you love”

B.C. – A.D.

September 20, 2017

Before Cancer/After Diagnosis, but I must say, I’m all Jesusy lately. I don’t talk about prayer or church or religion much here on the blog because believe it or not, I do have some things in my life that I don’t talk about here on the blog, or even in person a whole lot. Surprise, I know. 

That being said, I do believe in the power of prayer. I’ve always been one to pray a lot, I have always had a strong faith in God, and I thank all of you that do pray and that have said prayers for me and my family, and I truly appreciate them, and I feel them.

If you don’t pray, but believe in sending good vibes, I believe in those too and I appreciate them and feel them too!

I think it’s really about positive thoughts, good karma and doing what works for YOU to be happy with your life. 

That being said…today’s blog post is all B.C. A good old fashioned blog post like I did before cancer.

I had a great day!

It was a Tuesday, and I don’t typically work on Tuesday’s, so I planned out how I would fill my day and it was just what I needed.

I spent the morning having coffee on the deck, then I curled up in one of my favorite chairs and sipped on more coffee all morning while I read emails, read over my Weight Watcher work emails, looked at Pinterest and wrote my blog post for the day.

I got dressed and headed out for a walk with my friend Becky in the afternoon. It was just over a mile and it was slow, but it was a walk and it felt great.

A girlfriend came over when she got off work and we got all caught up. She brought me the cutest t-shirt too!

I had a gift card to Panera from a neighbor, so I went and picked up dinner for Mike and I.

After dinner I took a long shower, then did a great Yoga practice. This helps with a great nights sleep!

I did not count SmartPoints for the day, but I was pleased with my food choices.

I got my water in, however I got a late start, so lot’s of potty trips late in the day.

I didn’t take any Advil or Tylenol, but I did take Benadryl for a good nights sleep last night. It worked just fine.

It really was the perfect day!

I hope you all had a fantastic Tuesday!!

Happy Hump Day!!

Here are yesterday’s eats….

 

Breakfast

I didn’t feel like cooking, but wanted something sweet.

These Larabars are perfect for those mornings and they are only made of fruit and nuts. No added sugar. I also had a banana.

 

Lunch

Boring but nutritious and all foods that I like and happened to have, thanks to my short visit to the grocery store the other day.

Rotisserie Chicken, Bell Peppers and Carrots, Strawberries, Trader Joe’s Dried Apples (no added sugar, apples only) with Trader Joe’s No Salt Almond Butter (almonds and cashews are the only ingredients).

 

Dinner

A neighbor dropped off a sweet card the other day and included a Panera gift card! I have the best neighbors!

We have a Panera close, but never think to go there. We will be going back!

Mike ordered a Chicken sandwich.

I ordered the Club Salad.

 

I skipped the dressing, but did end of topping this with Salsa

 

Panera Autumn Squash Soup

Because I love Pumpkin, I had to give this a try. I don’t know all of the ingredients, but on the Panera website, it does say that the their Squash Soup has Butternut Squash AND Pumpkin in it!

This was delicious!!

I did look up the SmartPoints, and 1 cup = 11 SmartPoints.

 

2017 Goals
Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

 

I didn’t even have any stressful situations yesterday, but this made me giggle.

“love the life you live, live the life you love”

Member…Leader…Patient

September 19, 2017

I’m feeling very lost in my Weight Watcher Membership, my role as a Weight Watcher Leader and my reality of being a Patient right now. I knew this part of things would get to me at some point, I just wasn’t sure when. Well, that’s happening now.

I have some new followers, so just a brief update. Brief, I swear.

My goal weight is 160. I’m comfortable there, but it is difficult for me to maintain. My weight for about the last three years (or more) has been around 170. 172 to be exact. The doc say’s I’m super healthy and if I like 172, I’m good. I do feel good at that weight physically and mentally and had come to accept it. I eat a pretty clean diet, I’m active and I feel that my mind is in a good place. I feel confident in my role as a leader and as a member at 172.

Since life picked up in the stress department and “me time” became limited, I have not handled my stress as well as I had been in recent past. I wasn’t walking when I should have been to reduce stress (some of that was actually finding time and some of that was making excuses….really bad old habit!), I was eating larger portions as a way of comfort when I know better and I was making food choices that left me feeling sluggish and added pounds.

My comfort level of 172 is now an uncomfortable 182.

When first meeting with my plastic surgeon (and my weight being up), he took a look at my belly and told me that my body would be great for this surgery and  recommended staying at my current body weight. We briefly talked about my weight and my feelings on it.

If I had just gained weight in my belly, that would be awesome for the upcoming surgery, but I see it in my butt, my thighs and my arms and I feel it head to toe. 

I am looking forward to being back to work for the months of October and November and I have yet to put on pants other than stretchy jeans or sweats and yoga pants. I don’t want to lead a WW meeting feeling unhappy with my weight. Ugh.

So, I’m all over in my head as how to approach these few months before that surgery. Go back to 172, feel better and settle for smaller breast in the end sounds like the smart thing to do and that is what my gut is telling me to do.

Counting points to get these pounds off while going through all the crap life seems to be tossing us right now sounds like something I should do, but not sure I would actually commit to doing right now.

I’m torn, and really just venting my thoughts here. Not sure how to handle it all. Bogging always helps me to sort it all out, so I’m sure I’ll be telling you how I’ve decided to handle things in a post tomorrow. Ahhhh…..the therapy of a blog.

 

In other news…..

I feel like the old couple that either spends all of their time talking about their aches and pains or spends all of their time driving each other to doctors appointments.

Look at how cute he is and that smile, and this was at his appointment!

Me? I’m just like…”Here we are again, in a waiting room listening to some dumb TV show.”

 

Yesterday, my appointment was first.

Visually, to the doc, everything seems to be healing really well.

I debated whether to have more saline filled into my tissue expanders yesterday or not. She is talking me through decisions but leaving them up to me, which I really appreciate. At least I think that’s what happening. You’ve gathered by now that I ask a gazillion questions. These tissue expanders feel so heavy and everything feels so uncomfortable. Getting out of bed or standing from a sitting position is not pleasant. Walking doesn’t feel great. I feel like I want to hold on to them and press on them to hold everything still.

Not only is the weight of them uncomfortable, but my nerves are alive on my insides and it feels like there is a small fire inside. As I walked in for my appointment, the thought of adding more saline sounded like a terrible idea!

She said that the nerve issue can be common and that we can try some medication to help with that, but there are side effects. I told her to give me another week and see if it improves. It is still such a strange sensation to feel nothing on the outside (like the needle they insert for the saline fill) but to feel so much tingling and burning on the inside!

We debated taking some fluid out because of how heavy they feel, or leaving them where they are for now and me adjusting to what they feel like, or adding more saline to fill the tissue expanders more so they don’t jostle around so much when I first stand up.

We decided to add more.

Today, everything feels about the same.

For three nights in a row, I took a pain pill and a muscle relaxer so I could sleep. Last night, I only took Advil PM, and honestly, I can’t tell much difference. Trying to wean off the meds.

 

Now for Mike….

He had a MOHS procedure (Thanks again readers, for telling me what that procedure is called! You are some smart people!!) last week. They wanted him to take that procedure one step further to make sure that all of the cancer was out of his shoulder, referred him to an Orthopedic Oncologist and sent him home with a gaping hole in the top of his shoulder, which we both refused to change the bandages on here at home. Well, out of necessity, we both have now done that together quite successfully a few times.

We’re becoming professionals at gross stuff like open wounds and post surgery drains!!

He went in yesterday to see the Orthopedic Oncologist.

The doc explained that this type of skin cancer has a very small risk of spreading, so that’s good. However, the hole is so large where they did the MOHS, he now has to have a skin graft (skin from his thigh) to fix the hole! He will then carry around a Wound Vac for about 5 days to help with the healing of his shoulder.

He is so excited!!! (Someone MUST design a sarcasm font!!)

That is scheduled at the hospital on Thursday. Outpatient, I’m the driver. 

They of course will also do any further testing on the skin cancer.

 

In a Nutshell

We both have our diagnosed cancer out of our bodies, (we think) and now we’re just trying to prevent infection and make things look pretty.

He will always have a big dent in his shoulder.

I get a tummy tuck and new boobs.

Not a lot can gross either of us out, for now.

 

Shopping!

I’m not a big shopper. I mean, I love clothes and all, but I just have never been much of a shopper. I think I have more fun looking through my closet and seeing how I can make really old clothes look like an outfit.

That being said, I do like new things on occasion.

Look what I bought on my phone  while sitting in the Healing Chair! I can’t wait for it to get here!

Super cute, huh? I think I bought it because eventually I will be able to wear tops with no wide sports bra straps, but pretty bras with slim straps, or even no bra at all!

I’ve never been able to do that.

 

I also bought this. I was invited to a CABI party this week, and I don’t think I’ll go, but I always buy at least one item.

 

I haven’t bought this one yet, but the day is young….

Yesterday’s eats…..

Brunch

One of my fav’s.

Sweet Potato Hash with Bell Peppers and Onions, topped with Eggs and Avocado and Trader Joe’s Everything But the Bagel Seasoning

 

Dinner

This Pot Roast was our first Meal Train delivery and there was plenty to freeze!

 

Perfect for dinner last night!

 

 

Okay, I’ve had two pots of coffee, no water and I promised myself a one mile walk today along with my Yoga.

Happy Tuesday my friends!

 

2017 Goals
Make time each week to Meal Plan
Drink 100 ounces of water each day
Exercise 5 days a week
Eat three meals and one snack daily
FOUR 100 Mile Walking Challenges this year! (This goal has changed a little now that I have this fabulous Fitbit.)

“love the life you live, live the life you love”