The Weight of My Weight

My July 4th morning started off with an early morning dog walk, then more walking with Tucker and a friend and her dog, then coffee in the driveway with Dad and Tucker while watching the Neighborhood July 4th Parade! Then I kept myself busy with lawn work…… And I made these for the BBQ with the neighbors later in the day……. Then I got into that rearranging mode again!! After mowing the lawn, I wanted a beer probably more than I have, since I haven’t. I’m sure being the 4th had a little something to do with it. But I do enjoying sitting and admiring a fresh cut lawn while sipping a cold beer. But since I’ve been dealing with this swelling issue and sodium and all that crap, I decided it might be the worst day possible to do that, so I drank ice water instead………blah blah blah……I know. […]

I hope you are all looking forward to celebrating the 4th of July today with family and friends. I think we are keeping things quiet today and getting a few chores checked off the list (Deck Staining!! Woohoo!!), then ending the day cooking out with neighbors and listening to and watching random fireworks displays. We can actually see several displays from our bedroom windows, and since Mishka is so completely petrified of the noise from the fireworks, we often end up watching the displays from bed with the dogs. 🙂 As my week gets closer to Fridays Weigh-In, I have feelings of anxiety and panic about the scale. The scale at home has really been all over the place this week, just like last week!! It’s never been so up and down on a daily basis like this, so I feel a little lost. I am going to…..”Keep On Truckin”……. […]

When you’re in the Weight Loss Zone, you eat less, right? Last Friday, members of my Weight Watchers meeting suggested that I eat my activity points when I discussed my frustration of hard work and then a GAIN of 0.6 pounds! Since then , others have also suggested that I eat my activity points earned that day. The body is a funny thing. Eat MORE to lose Weight? Sounds great, right? Who doesn’t want to hear that it’s okay to eat more food when you’re actually trying to eat LESS??? But you certainly need to eat more of the right things. Tuesday morning was filled with activity starting with a 6 mile walk with a friend at 6:30 in the morning! I really should walk that early every day! What a great feeling! Then we went to breakfast and enjoyed some good one on one girl time and getting caught […]

My long walks alone have been really good for reflecting…..or bad for over thinking, I guess it depends on the day’s thoughts. I can’t help but think a lot lately about my body being at goal weight and wondering….. Will I really look THAT different?How will my pants fit? Will my legs look normal? Will bra shopping be even MORE difficult? What Bra Cup Size and brand do you buy for skin? Will I EVER have ankles? As much as I talk about my dislike for my legs, it does feel good to finally start to see changes. But I think that I’ve determined…. I accept them, they belong to me.I respect them, so I will take good care of them.But I still don’t like them. I spent the morning reassembling my Grandma’s sewing machine. I’m super excited with the painting results! It fit in the entry, right where I […]

Yip. That’s exactly what happened. Our plans for the day included a trip with two other couples to a wine tasting. We made theses plans quite a while back, and I had decided to still go along, and watch. Plus, when I got on the scale on Sunday morning, I was VERY happy with the results, and I really don’t want anything to get in the way of next Friday’s results! If THIS week backfires on me, I’m going to have a nervous breakdown! Mike’s tasting glass…….along with a few Parmesan Crisp! I had water and a nice cold can of Diet Coke, thanks to Paul, the bartender. I had over thought and over thought the afternoon before leaving the house. While Mike and I were getting ready, I said to him….. “Okay, I need to just get this off my chest, and I need for you to just listen, […]

Super excited about this paint!! Before discussing paint, let me say that yesterday’s blog was tough to post. At this point, being so close to goal and having a timeline, a gain is NOT at all what I want to see, and it is much harder to deal with than it was six months ago because I now feel like I am working so hard. When I got out of bed Saturday morning, I went directly to the scale, still cranky from Friday mornings weigh in. When I stepped on the scale, I saw the results I had HOPED to see on FRIDAY! So, feeling frustrated and ecstatic all at the same time, I was eager to work hard the rest of the week, and Friday should be awesome! I spent the ENTIRE day painting out in the garage with the tunes cranked up and the dogs hanging out watching […]

First. I keep changing my Cover Photo on here and on Facebook because I’m in a “change” mood. Then, I decided if I am going to make my main picture a picture with other people in it, I should probably ask them for their permission first? Sorry to my friends that I didn’t think that through on previous photos I’ve used.I decided to go with a recent picture of Mike and I at the lake over Memorial Weekend, but I didn’t ask him either. Okay……Friday Reflection……… Well. I weighed. I gained. 162.4 I gained 0.6 pounds. I really wanted to cry. I guess my scale at home isn’t broken after all. Damn it. I really feel like I ALWAYS know how my weigh in is going to go, and this one truly has me baffled, and I will over think this to DEATH this entire week! The Weight Watcher leader […]

Dream Analysis….. Do you try to analyze your dreams? I do. All the time. Thursday, while I was on my walk (with my new, comfy shoes), I couldn’t stop thinking about this one dream I seem to have OVER and OVER again. In my dream, I am trying to run. I WANT to run. It’s mostly happening in slow motion, but at times, my pace picks up and it is perfect and it feels great, but then everything slows down again, like BEYOND slow motion and I can’t get a pace, and I feel clumsy and my legs aren’t doing what I want them to do and I just keep trying, but its all awkward and my feet are just dragging, but all I can think about is “I just want to RUN!” Let me kindly remind you. I DO NOT LIKE TO RUN! I have no idea what this […]

I have been pondering purchasing a new pair of walking shoes. I can never remember when I bought the last pair, but I was pretty sure it was about time for new shoes. After blisters on the back of my heals last week, and sore hips this week, I decided it might be time? I’m looking forward to my comfy walk this morning, although I did spend an hour with the trainer yesterday, and ALL we did was lower body, and I could hardly get out of bed this morning! I am hoping once I get to moving, my legs and butt will feel better as the day goes, right????? These socks were ridiculously expensive, as far as I’m concerned, (and I do NOT like to spend money, but I wore them while trying on shoes, and they were also ridiculously comfortable!!) so I bought three pairs! Breakfast Snack Rehydrate […]

……..water…….(wait, you didn’t think I? You DID?? No you didn’t. Well, I didn’t)……..and I spent 2/3 of my walk trying to figure out where I was going to “go”, and fretting over whether I would make it or not! I sent the neighbor I was closest to a text, and she wasn’t home, but luckily she said the door was open and to help myself!! Thank goodness! Earlier in the day, I met with the Trainer for about an hour and we spent that time figuring out what I “could” and “couldn’t” do with my right arm, but mostly what I “couldn’t” do, so that sucked. He was super patient though, and offered to see me again today to give me a lower body workout to do for a week. Then the plan is to meet once a week for the next 8 weeks and work on my shoulder mobility […]