One Week at a time. One Day at a time. One meal at a time.
I got a lot off of my chest yesterday when I wrote my blog, and it led to a successful day. I felt in control.
After my WW meeting yesterday, I had a great long chat with my Leader. I asked her if she had other members get so close to goal, then freak out and gain weight because they feared being at goal weight. She surprisingly told me that was common. Why do I always think I’m the only one experiencing something?? Why do I think I’m so special? All seriousness aside, I’m glad I asked her that, and I’m glad we discussed it.
I want to get to goal, and not be afraid of maintaining my weight once I get there. I’m told I’m being hard on myself. I think I’m just being realistic. When you’ve been trying to lose the amount of weight that I am trying to lose for over four years, and you haven’t reached your final goal, anyone would beat themselves up a bit and wonder why they haven’t been able to get to goal. It is admittedly embarrassing, so occasionally I address the issue. I feel like if I don’t do that, then I’m ignoring the fact, or that I begin to make excuses for myself, yet when I do address it, it seems as though I’m beating myself up.
I’ll be kinder to myself this week. We all say things to ourselves that we would never say to someone else. I’ll remind myself of that this week. I’ll talk to myself as though I’m talking to my best friend.
Am I a Food Addict, or am I an Overeater? Am I either of those things? I don’t know. I was looking for answers. After thinking about it, and not really feeling like I need a label for myself, I am curious, At an OA meeting, you actually do introduce yourself by name, followed by how you are identifying yourself. It is run exactly like an AA meeting, only replacing the word alcohol with food. Introducing myself properly made me question my attendance. I don’t know what I am. I do not think that I am an compulsive overeater. I don’t actually think that I am a food addict. I do think that I am an compulsive food thinker!! I do graze. I do binge. But I don’t yet know my label. This is what I want to say.
“Hi, my name is Julie. I have a lot of food issues, but I’m not quite sure how to identify myself here.”
I really enjoy cooking and looking up new recipes to try. I like food. I enjoy my meals. Can I still expect to be able to cook and blog and abstain from extra snacking throughout the day? I’ve gotten to the point that I am at in my weight loss by doing so. I should be able to figure out a balance that allows me to do that. I think that I can. I want to. I want to always to be able to write my blog. It’s become such a huge part of my day. I want to be able to blog about my weight loss, reaching my goal, my eventual weight loss maintenance, my physical goals, future 5K’s, and new recipes that I’ve tried, without it leading me to unplanned eating during the day.
All of that being said, I had a great Friday. I made good choices. I lived. I enjoyed a Happy Hour with a friend, and an unexpected visit from my next door neighbor. I made good choices without over thinking everything. Heck, I even exercised, and this is typically my day off of exercising.
Here are my food choices for Friday.
Leftover Salmon and Sweet Potato
with scrambled Egg Whites
Tall Nonfat Latte
I went to the smaller size. 🙂
1/2 Gluten Free Everything Bagel
3 Egg Whites, One Laughing Cow Cheese Wedge
1 Cup of Berries
Edamame and Carrots with Hummus
This is my neighbor Sarah. She had a lot on her mind and brought over a Box of Wine to sip on while she shared what exactly was on her mind. She’s very entertaining. She insisted on finishing the bag. Mike and I helped her.
Weight Watcher’s Points Plus
I can eat 26 PPV a day.
I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise, and eat them if I choose.
I have an allowance of 49 extra points that I can dip into throughout the week if I choose.
I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.
My Weight Watcher Week Begins on Friday’s
Breakfast = Eggs, Salmon, Potatoes, Coffee with Skim Milk (7)
Snack = Latte (2)
Lunch = Bagel Sandwich, Fruit (6)
Dinner = Hummus, Carrots, Edamame, Wine (22)
Total = 37
Exercise = 5K Training
How many glasses of water I drank = 8
Activity Points Earned for the Day = 3
Activity Points Earned This Week = 3
Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = 38
Alcohol Consumption = Wine
“love the life you live, live the life you love”