Not “In The Zone”

I wasn’t sure if to title this post…..

Not “In The Zone”….or….

“Happy and Healthy”

Confusing…right?

I am definitely Not “In The Zone” these last several days with my food choices!

I’m drinking my water and I feel good about the exercise I’m doing, but the food and drink???

When I am “In The Zone”, I am constantly telling myself that it really isn’t that hard, and that I feel great! I think no matter what I weigh, being “In The Zone” feels good to me mentally. It feels good because I feel strong. I feel confident. I eat without any guilt.

When I am Not “In The Zone”, I feel rushed because I am grabbing something to eat without planning and thinking about the quality of the food, I feel guilty about the food and drink choices that I make, and I feel lazy for not being “In The Zone” and putting forth the effort to make the healthier choice.

I was so ready to have the grandkids here this weekend and make good food choices. The first night that they were here, I had a Salmon Caesar Salad and followed through with my plan. 

They spent the night and I made oatmeal for myself and pancakes for them for breakfast on Saturday. I hadn’t had a Buttermilk Pancake in forever, so guess who ate what was left on their plates?? This girl! Like….I shoved those bites of pancake in my mouth!!

Saturday was full of playtime and I quickly ate a bowl of Zero Point Weight Watcher Soup and some fruit. All good, right?

After lunch, and another walk around the neighborhood with Tucker, my Granddaughter and I built a fire in the fire pit outside, and a glass of wine sounded good while sitting around the fire. She had popcorn, I had wine. She told me it was the best day of her life! She’s five. I smiled the rest of the night!

We ordered Mexican take out for dinner and I ended up sharing their chips and guac AND their nachos along with the shrimp fajita’s that I had ordered for myself for dinner.

Later, we showered, put on pjs and built a fort in the basement.

 

I could play with her for days…..

The kids parents picked them up that evening, and then I had more wine. 

Sunday, I didn’t even eat lunch. I drank it.

I had a nice relaxing Sunday morning with coffee and a healthy breakfast, then I went to Yoga. After Yoga, I mowed my yard, I trimmed, I pulled a few weeds, and I collected sticks from the yard. I was drinking water the whole time. I was having a super healthy and active day!

I have a HUGE pile of sticks in the garage that I have collected from our River Birch that sheds sticks like crazy! I decided to hang out by the fire pit and burn up all of the sticks! I love a fire pit and it was the perfect day for it. The sticks went up in flames and freaked me out for just a sec!

A couple of friends stopped by that live in the neighborhood, and after we chatted for a bit, I opened up a bottle of wine for the three of us to share. Then I opened up another bottle of wine. I never did eat lunch.

I start off everyday with a healthy breakfast that is point friendly and pleasing to my pallet. I start everyday with such good food intentions, then the day seems to get away from me.

Last night I did a lot of thinking about where I am at in this whole “The Weight of my Weight” journey, and as off track as I am this week, I feel really happy, which is baffling to me for some reason, but good, I know.

For years, I have journaled. As a kid, and as a young adult, I would start every single journal entry with the date, then my weight, like it defined where I was at in my life, or my mood for that particular journal entry. Some days, I DO let that number on the scale define my mood, but I am getting better at that. Much better.

While I am a little frustrated with myself for not staying “In The Zone” and getting back to my goal weight, and I am confused as to why at times I am so “In The Zone” and other times I am not, I know that right now, today, I am happy. While I am not at my ideal weight, I am healthy. That’s the goal. Happy and Healthy.

Today will be a great day! 

I hope that if you are struggling with your weight and food choices, that you will stop today and recognize the positive changes that you have made to make your life healthier, and that you will give yourself credit for those changes.

We all deserve to be happy.

 

“love the life you live, live the life you love”