The Weight of My Weight

After a few relaxing days feeling carefree came a few days filled with lots of emotions. Plain and simple. This sucks. Co-workers lost their jobs this week. I was one of the lucky ones. I get to keep my job. I shared with a friend several weeks ago the guilt and other emotions I was experiencing knowing so many people were going through job loss, financial struggles or illness while Mike and I are over here feeling healthy and living our life really only changing our social gatherings and grocery shopping routines. While I’m certainly grateful, I can’t help but fill my head with how many people are going through extremely difficult times. Now having people that I’m close with lose their jobs exaggerates all of those emotions. It is such a strange time with such a roller coaster of emotions, feelings and thoughts. Along with guilt, empathy and gratitude […]

I’m going to press the pause button and spend these next few rainy days off work and offline. Sometimes ya just gotta do that. I’ll be back Saturday! Now, go be amazing! “love the life you live, live the life you love”

I’d like to repeat the entire weekend. It was such a great one. Things felt normal. I don’t want to let my guard down so much that I’m careless, but I’m so anxious, as I know many of you are as well, to get back to as much normalcy as possible. We had my mom over for Mother’s Day and I shared in yesterdays post that I gave her a hug when she got here. It was the impulse thing to do. The many times that I have taken her groceries since the middle of March, I have not given her a hug or touched her or allowed myself to get too close to her. Yesterday, I just forgot. The idea of inviting her over to the house to sit outside was to still keep our distance. I dunno. It’s all so weird. I’ve kept my eye on the numbers […]

I hope all of the moms are enjoying their day. It is a beautiful Sunday here. Morning coffee, sunshine, text and chats with kids. We decided to have my mom over for coffee. There is plenty of room on the deck for the three of us to enjoy coffee and it seemed like a good idea. I brightened it up with a few pink flowers. As soon as she got here I hugged her without thinking. She said…”I see we’re hugging again.” I said, “Crap, that was an accident”, then went and washed my hands. Happy Mother’s Day Mom. I had so much baguette bread left from our Friday dinner that I told Mike the B&B would be serving French Toast for breakfast on the deck. The rest of our day really was pretty chill. I took a 4 mile walk late in the afternoon, then watched Mike play with […]

The Number 21 “Through this number your angels will motivate you to have faith and to believe in the positive outcome that is in front of you.” I was trying to find some significant meaning in the number 21 as I was putting together an evening for Mike and I to celebrate our 21st Anniversary at home. I wanted it to be a special night. I wanted it to be an anniversary to remember, not because of the coronavirus and all that we couldn’t do, but an anniversary to remember because it was special. I wanted to look back and remember how we have learned to work together as a team when shit just gets hard. Google brought me to the statement above and it seemed absolutely perfect for where we find ourselves right now in life. I find it worth a second read. “Through this number your angels will […]

Let’s just say it wasn’t your typical Cinco de Mayo. It was a quiet day and a quiet evening. I enjoy spending time alone and I can find several things to do to entertain myself, but I’m starting to miss my social gatherings, especially so when there is something to celebrate. We have some friends that often host Cinco de Mayo and I would have loved nothing more than to spend the evening on their patio last night with friends enjoying some authentic mexican food and a Margarita. Instead, Mike and I enjoyed a our own little Fiesta on the deck and fantasized about going to a party. Earlier in the day, my niece met me over at Effie and we had coffee together while practicing social distancing. She has a cute little truck with a camper shell on the back and she may love Effie almost as much as […]

I’ve gone through most of my projects so these rainy days at home leave me looking for things to occupy my time. Yesterday along with planning for my week and coaching a workshop, I cooked, sat through a storm on the deck, tried the air fryer once again and I officially give up, gave myself a pedicure, did Yoga, walked on the treadmill, cooked some more and ended the night with a face mask, then a bath. What are you spending your time doing? I love Yoga with Adrienne on Youtube. Have you met Adrienne? She has such a variety. Yesterday I did a 20 minute Yoga Flow. then hopped on the treadmill for 30 minutes. If you’re a Yoga fan, check her out. If you’re a Yoga virgin, check her out. She has beginner classes too! Did I mention I’ve gone through most of my projects and I’m looking […]

I spent most of Sunday sitting here, sipping coffee and thinking about what May might look like. It looks like several states will be lifting the “Stay at Home” order over the next few days, many in phases. Here in Kansas, we have state, county and city dates that all differ. It’s a little hard to really know what to do. So many strong opinions out there. Many wanting to open and get the economy back up and running with many willing to support businesses while others still wanting to stay home in hopes of preventing spreading the coronavirus. I truly believe that we are all trying to do what we think is best. I’m trying to do the right thing, but I realize the “right thing” looks different to many of us. I’m doing my best to stay positive and respect all of the different points of view out […]